I’m a dick.

I started this post because I wanted to blame some of the actions of the previous night on alcoholic beverages. Then as i started to type I realized there was no blame to be placed on them. I was just a dick.

How can I talk about this with out being obvious?

I spoke with someone I know. Yeah, thats vague. We spoke of things that I normally do not speak of. Ooooh, even MORE vague. I’m very non-chalant about certain subjects. So much so that I won’t even bring them up. But as of late I’ve been on some honesty kick and I think its just flat out causing me to self destruct.

So in the midst of talking to said person, discussing non-happy topics I brought up something that shouldn’t have been brought up. I was in the midst of proving a point and I just said shit that I shouldn’t have said. I had sworn to myself I wouldn’t mention it. I don’t know what purpose it served. I’m such a dick. Soon as I walked away from this person I shook my head, disturbed by what I said. It wasn’t necessary. I could’ve just shut my hole and called it a day. But no, I had to go all out. I had to run off at the yap.

I’m pissed with myself about it.

Theres so many different layers to this, that I can’t even get into it. I shouldn’t even be really trying to explain myself here. I should be in my private blog. But this blog as of late has been becoming more of an expression of me than the entertainment source it was supposed to be. Dear God man. I think my slip up had something to do with my actual thoughts about this person. Its been weird. I’ve thought stuff and possibly said stuff…yup, no more alcohol cause i can’t even catagorically say what I said. I have these vague ideas and possibilities. Bleh. I’m not making sense and if I was making sense it wouldn’t be wise to write on the blog that everyone I know reads.

I’m out. This post has served no purpose whatsoever…

ejw

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